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Thursday, July 29, 2010
Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was choice, but falling in love with you was completely out of my control.
I'm starting to get the feeling
that your pushing me away
I've been trying to get in touch with you
And I've been here for you every day
When I call you don't answer
Why is it that your hurting me?
You've been ingnoring my phone calls all day long
How in the world could this be?
The tears will soon start to fall
From these light brown eyes tonight
Even if you called right now
It wouldn't make it alright.
You said you were coming over
Yet you never called
I haven't havent talk to you over almost a year
So I sit here and scrawled
As I sit here and write this
With my back against the wall
All I really truely want
Is a stupid little call
Should I end this relationship now?
Should I see what happens next?
Should I wait for your call?
Or hope for a text?
Its getting hard to love you
Its hard to say that now
Your bringing this upon yourself
Time to decided when and how!
I just cant forget the memorable times when Im with you.
When I see your smile
I wish I was the one you are smiling to
But I was not the one.
Are you the one? Are you not?
How I hope life could go slower sometimes..
How I wish I can control everything
How I wish I am not alive
How I wish you are always there with me
By-Nikki
Don't let me go...
You make me feel like everything
But at the same time you make me feel like nothing
You make whatever life is
too hard...
But with every hug you give
You make it easier
And easier
Tell me...
"how does the wind take away air?"
just like how life takes me from you
You from me...
I want you to be mine
But time takes it toll on the years
and if anything the day will come
And you might not be here
Anymore...
I'd like to believe that some things are meant to be
Maybe some explanation to why this happens to me
When I was younger, everything seemed so undemanding
I didn't need a reason to be, I didn't need to keep trying
Why should I need any more than the simple things
I was content with the world and what life brings
But then you came along and changed it all
I thought I didn't need you, but here I fall
I was never one to rely on its existence
But I guess I was never under its pretense
I watched around me as everyone plummeted
Only to realize I must've been distracted
I was never the girl to care of its absence
I just turned my head and kept my distance
I promised myself that I would never give in
But now look at what's happening
And maybe this won't last, but who am I to know
I'd like to take this chance, I really would, although
I can't drop down the barriers I've worked so hard to build
If you don't walk away, I think that I just will
I was never one to take risks or let my guard down
I always thought it was better to smile than to frown
But maybe this restricts me from feeling what's real
This thing. this something that feels amazing to feel
I'd like to think this happens to me alot
But that's not the case, it's just a thought
I'd like to believe that I haven't yet fallen
And I never have, but you're the only exception.
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
The reason I turn around, surprised to see you standing there
I never thought that it was true, this feeling that makes me blue
‘It’s a coincidence’ I’ll say, but really, I just want you to stay
My best friend, your classmate
Your best friend, I dread
So this just goes to say, we are the total opposites
But still, I feel so strongly about you
Nothing compares, not a star, not a billion dollars when I see your smile
I know, I can’t compete with all those other girls
Whether they really exist, I don’t really care
If I could go back in time, I’d like to go back to those moments
When our eyes met, perfectly locked, when nothing could break it apart
When you would smile that charming smile, Knowing that I would see
Knowing that I understood
But now those days are gone, and all I have are just memories, dreams
Now I really wish that I knew
How you felt about me
-written by Jade. I heart it. And it resembles me and someone.
You were once my soul.
You was once everything to me.
I think of you all night and day.
But this girl came into our life.
She IS attractive.
She IS pretty & beautiful.
She steal the show.
She was cool to everyone.
You was all in her.
I dont understand you anymore.
Not a thing I really understand about you already.
You walk out of my life.
You really did.
Or did you not.
Im not sure.
Is she really everything to you?
People ask me if I still like you.
I said NO.
But I know that Im lying.
Cuz I dont even know the answer to the question.
You walk out of my life.
You really did.
Or did you not.
Im not sure.
But Im sure I know somethings.
Knowing you wasnt easy, getting along with you wasnt easy, liking you was much more easier.
But trying to forget you is something really difficult.Really, very,difficult.
-Nicole, this was how I felt exactly.
You didnt like me in the first place.
But you started talking to me after a while.
I didnt feel comfortable talking to you in the first place.
But I got used to it.
You was like my best friend.
The one I can talk to.
But after a year past,
you was cold towards me.
I was upset.
I didnt dare to talk to you.
You didnt talk to me either.
I felt uncomfortable around you.
I didnt know why.
Our close friends relationship was fading.
Till one end that I was courage to talk to you again.
But that kind of feeling I had with you last time wasnt here again.
Im not sure why.
Is our friendship over?
What do you treat me as?
-a true story, from Nic.
Monday, July 26, 2010
haha. LOL.. LOL.. I really gotta laugh!I wont tell you what happen..
But it was about TYA..
He was so stupid. (no offence)
LOL!!!~~~
Not much today..
oh ya!!
Today my aunt came to my Chinese class and teach us.
nth much actually...
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Nic♥- still confused!
>.<
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Are you the one?Or are you not?
I'm not sure.
People ask me.
I dont know how to answer.
I just dont know.
I saw you today.
I've lots of things to tell you.
And I'm sure you have too.
But I dont dare to say.
Cuz you didnt say anything.
I'm afraid to talk to you.
I'm not sure why.
You stare into my eyes,
I stare into yours.
I look away.
But you didnt.
I look back at you.
You were still looking.
I dont know what to do.
But continue staring at you.
Do you love me?
Or do you not?
Please give me a reply as soon as possible.
I'm just cheating myself.
Cuz I know I wont get an ans.
I'm confused.
I just want an answer.
I know I cant.
But I want an answer.
♥, Nicole
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Found this on web, hope you like it.I heart it alot!(:
SMILES~
So many thoughts,
I don't know where to begin,
I'll start from my heart,
and what I feel within.
I still have feelings,
which haven't changed,
because when you left me
my life was re-arranged.
I used to cry
so many times a day,
but lately those tears
have been fading away.
I am hoping that
my brighter day soon will come,
and maybe, just maybe,
I'll find that special someone.
Yes, it's been hard,
but I'm getting back my life,
I've even managed
to put away the knife.
I will find someone
who's right for me,
who loves me
and lets me be all I can be.
Yet the thought of you and her,
is tearing me apart,
because you will always have a special place
in my broken heart.
Do I still love you?
Yes, I do,
but another part of me
is getting over you.
I never thought I would say this,
but I simply have to confess,
with each and every day that goes by,
I love you less and less.
I just wanted to be with you,
but now you're gone,
and the time has come
for me to move on.
You meant so much to me,
in fact, you still do,
from the bottom of my heart,
I loved you too.
"Whats' up?!"a friend ask me.
"Nths' up." I replied. (almost always.) haha, Im not being sarcastic.
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Im feeling down.
All because of you.
Or is it myself?
Maybe Im just thinking too much.
Maybe Im not.
I dont know.
Im confused.
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Byes~
Nic♥
>.< *wink*
Friday, July 23, 2010
To my dearest friends, Jaquelyn & Pek Wei:First of all,
NOBODY IS PERFECT.
Im sorry if what I had said or done had cause you to be upset.
Its ok.
Whats over is over.
We can do nothing.
We cant go back to the past.
Even if we can,
its no use.
But, what I hope is this kind if things dont ever ever ever happen again once more.
Thkx to Farah, it was her, who made me feel that you girls need to know about it.
But, if you dont know, maybe life will be better.
I was the one.
I was the one who make your life bad.
All your life was cheerful. FULL of cooler friends.
I dont know, but it was just my fault that make it to this point.
I just hope that we will always remain as Best Friends. ALWAYS.
Let us never meet this kind of situation again.
Sorry.
Nicole Valerie Choo Jia Yi- your bestie
Not much today.
Really not much.
But the convo with Zahid just now was funny.
Not gonna tell you.
haha.
SECRET! It sound so mysterious!!
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A Friend is a Treasure
A Friend is someone we turn to,
when our spirits need a lift.
A friend is someone we Treasure,
for our friendship is a gift.
A friend is someone who fills our lives with beauty, joy and grace.
And make the world we live in,
a better and happier place.
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Do you guys know that a friend will how you feel even if you dont say anything about it?
Do you know that your expression shows everything?
Do you know that your expression shows everything?
If you show that you are happy, ppl may think that you are happy? When actually you are feeling sad?
Just think of this, you may not know what I mean.
Just have time to think.
It really taught me alot.
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Byes~
Nic >.< *wink*
I was right!!
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
haha. I am right!Not more than 10 ppl where traditional costume.
There was only 5 ppl who wore.
They were:
1) Jaquelyn
2) Mei Xuan
3)Syahira
4) Matthew
5) Uwais
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Some more we had P.E. today..
Not fun..
Tmr confirm still must run!!
I hate it..
Everytime after P.E., I feel like having a bath.
But, it is impossible.
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BOOMZ!
Byes guys~
Nic♥ - Hate P.E. this year!! HATE!!!
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
BOOMZ! How are you guys feeling? Im feeling.... Lots of feeling now actually.haha.Tomorrow is Racial Harmony Day!!
I think our class, there wont be anyone wearing traditional costumes!
But, if there is, it wont be more than 10!
haha.
People will be wearing P.E. attire for my class.
I heard that for P.E. tmr, we will be playing games... related to Racial Harmony Day.
Happy! NO P.E.!! haha. *no offence*
Do you that today was the first time I shouted so loud. My heart was racing!
It was really loud I think.
I hate the class today. (not everyone)
I learned from Farah that not to be too fierce to them, thn they will listen. haha.
But what over is over (not to everything)
I dont want to type too much bout' myself today.
Just dont feel like to!
Im looking forward to tmr! But, sch will be ending an hour earlier.
I want to stay in school more!!
But, not studying the whole day!! haha.
BOOMZ!
Byes~
Nic-looking forward... =D
>.< *wink*
Monday, July 19, 2010
Just went to Farah's blog.I love her post.
I want to tell my bestie,sister sth, after reading Farah's recent post.
To Pek Wei:
You wont be a LONER!
and I know,
there will still be ppl on earth who care about you.
we grow up tgt.
I know what is your character like.
What I can tell you is,
NOBODY IS PERFECT.
People have good & bad points.
Even me & you.
Just believe in yourself.
Make it good.
You will have your friends back.
I dont want my cheerful friend to be sad.
SMILES~
(Think of ice-cream! (: )
Nicole-Your bestie,sista
19th July
LOL
It was really funny today. I wont tell you..But another thing was, me & Farah was playing "pencil case hitting" with each other.
It was fun though.
haha.
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Minwei said my blog was a little emo.
haha
So, im trying to make it more interesting, fun, and more laughter.
But, I will definitely pour MOST of my feelings in here.
The rest will go to either My DIARY or PAMELA!!
LOL !! =DD
COOL~ SMILES~
Byes~ *BOOMZ*
Nic >.<
*wink*
its not going the right way!
Sunday, July 18, 2010
My heart isnt going the right way.Can you believe it?
Really.
Again.
What am I supposed to do?
I dont know.
My mind is blank.
If I go on like this.
It wont be good.
Really.
I dont feel good.
Help.
God, I noe u are there for me when I needed help.
I bet this will go on till next year.
Really.
Im not kidding you at all.
I can really be happy.
But inside really, Im not feeling good at all.
Nicole- My heart isnt going the right way.
I cant concentrate.
With all this problems bothering me.
God, pls tell me what to do.
I need to concentrate on my work.
I may look fine on the outside.
But, inside me, its miserable.
U may not believe it.
I cant stop thinking.
Its making me feel troubled.
STOP!!!!
I just want to really concentrate on my studies.
On PSLE.
In School.
Thats all.
But, I just cant.
Nic♥- Bothered.
Hey!! I heart my blog!!
Hey Guys!!How is my blog's new skin?
I heart it!!
All thanks to Pamela.
(:
She helped me with it!!
THKS!!!Pamelaaaaa~
Now, I finally noe how to use blogskin's skin liao.
Next time will try my own.
haha.
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Leave a comment in my new c-box!! (:
I want it to be like my old one.
As many comments as possible.
But, it must be positive!!
haha. =D
____________________________
Byes~
Nic♥♥♥♥♥♥ >.< *wink*
Crazee!!!!!
Friday, July 16, 2010
Have you read Ariel's blog for today? If you havent, NOW! GO!
trulyarielicious.blogspot.com
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Today's Adam Khoo's workshop was damn cool!!!
It was like CRAZEEE!!
It was really fun.
But, through the fun,
we did learn things.
It was like amazing.
The songs were terrific.
We had loads of fun!
REALLY!!
haha.
We were like singing, dancing(me & farah)
haha.
SMILES~
Byes!
Nic >.< *wink*
Tmr's Adam Khoo workshop
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Tmr have the Adam Khoo's workshop thingie...So, no need bring sch bag lorh... (:
:D
But, still must bring small bag larh..
thn CY say dont wanna bring bag AT ALL
him arh..
Thn must bring sweater/jacket, pencil case... etc...etc
Why bring jacket?
Oh..
Cos we will be in air-corn room from about 8am to 5pm...
DEAD!!
FREEZE!!
COLD!!
haha.
Thn I wish we will be in AVA room for the Adam Khoo thing. Thn the whole level tgt!!
That will be so fun. If the AVA room can fit larh..
haha.
Hey let me ask you, those who noe Muhammad Zahid Tan, do you think that if I dont talk to him just because I say if he tell me who he like, then I talk to him, is it very bad? Is he pitiful?
But I cant help it.
I really want to know who he like..
Its interesting to know who a guy like.
Do you know that?
haha.
OK.
thats all for now!!! (:
Byes~
Nic-looking forward to tmr!!
>.< *wink*
Happy!!! SO.... Happy!!
haha. I really have to laugh. During the last last period of class, me and my friends, (Yuh Horng,Haikel,Farah) was laughing non-stop!!!!!!! I dont tell you what happen... To me & Farah. Farah: Dont say arh. SORRY!! shhhh!
Thn, Yuh Horng, haha. So angry with him!! Just sth funny actually.
But me and Haikel is always laughing, oh ya! Im sitting with Haikel now!!
Im still not talking to Zahid!!! Hahahahahaha...
Still wont talk to him!
He very sad..
Thn he keep emo-ing.
Thn I always like do the zipping-of-mouth-action to him, thn, he will like do the sad face to me... haha
Thn sometimes I laugh with Haikel, thn he thought I smiling at him..
Thn he "smile back" at me.
Thn, I was like just sometimes smile, sometimes dont smile lorh..
At least he still one of my good friend marh, cannot let friend always so sad.
But this is the only way, maybe. haha
Another thing Im happy, is cos just now at.... I wont tell you!haha. Byes!!
Pekky: Rmb to help me change my blogskin, call me (home) when you are free(: thks!
ok. thats all. SMILES~
Byes~
Nic >.< *wink*
Finally..........
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
I have made a decision!!! Haha.... (: wont tell you... cannot write in web marh... (:haha. Okay. Nth else to write liao... Dont noe what to write actually...
Wanna know anything from me?
Ask in my C-box!!
I'll ans you if I can.. (:
:D
Byes~
Nic >.< *wink*
Went to causeway!
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Went to causeway to buy present for cousin,Kai Wen today. His birthday is round the corner. At 15th July. You noe, his sis birthday is at 15th June. The same date but different month and year. haha. Hope he like it.I know its a short post. But, I really have nth else to say.
Byes~
Nic >.<
*wink*
Friends
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Friends are important. You dont need to have tons of them to be with you. You just need one or two who is truthful & loyal to you.
You can just grab them; tell them your misery and happiness. Tell them how you feel.
And they will listen to you.
Friends tell you yr mistakes.
They make you feel fortunate to have a friend like them.
They help you.
They overcome your fears.
This is what friends do.
Are you one? You better be!
Here are a few friendship messages I surf on the net & find it meaningful and will like to share it with you.
I do not want a friend who smiles when I smile who weeps when I weep for my shadow in the pool can do better than that.
A true friend is one who overlooks your failures and tolerates your successes.
I won't promise to be your friend forever, because I won't live that long. But let me be your friend as long as I live.
You are a gift wrapped in ribbons of thoughtfulness and trimmed with kisses and smiles, given by God to stay not just for a day, but for life.
Age appears to be best in some things. Old wood best to burn. Old books best to read. Old rice best to eat and most of all.. Old friends best to keep, just like you.
I may have forgotten to say that I care. I may have failed to open up and share, but though no words have been spoken, my promise of friendship won't be broken.
Knowing a friend like you has made me happy in a million ways and if ever I have to let you go I would find a million reasons to make you stay.
It takes half our life to find true friends and half of it keeping them. I am lucky to have spent less than half my life finding you and wish to spend the rest keeping you.
My heart is like an open book, it depends on how u read me. Don't judge me by my cover. Look in and discover. I will be your true friend for ever.
Treat life as the sea, your heart as the shore, and friend as waves. It never matters how many waves there are, what matter is which ones touch the shore.
Our friendship has become "HABIT". If u take out "H".. "ABIT" remains, even you take out "A".. "BIT" remains, now even remove "B".. "IT" remains.
Yeah we're tight, and yeah we fight, but through all of it, there's one thing that will never change, we'll be friends forever.
One day Friendship & Love met one-another. Love asked Friendship -"Why do You exist if I'm there?" So Friendship said -"To give a Smile to those eyes in which You leave Tears."
Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was choice, but falling in love with you was completely out of my control.
Nth much - sth about Zahid only
From the title... I bet u noe that it is another boring post. Except the one that says 'sth about Zahid only'K, here is the thing.
I told Zahid that if he doesnt tell me who he like. thn I wont talk to him. Thn for days alr, he have been trying to make me talk to him.. But, it wont work. I just wont talk to him.. thn keep saying I so bad. thn I told Ginnie to ask him why he wanna me to talk to him thn he say cos I never talk to him very weird like that. its like Im not even related to him. Or neither his best friend.
So, whats with the prob that its weird that im not talking to him at all???
I just wont talk to him until he tell me who he like.
Byes thn!!
Nic >.< *wink*
Haix!
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Why? Why sigh?
haiz..
simple...
Bored..
Worried especially!!
Im worried. can you please reply my sms?
Im not at all sure why im worried about you!
You are just a friend in church, just a brother-in-christ. Just a person not different from others. Do you noe that? But why? Why? Why am I suffering for just a normal person like you? Or is it that you are not an normal person. Maybe?
Two things:
1) You are God's precious child, like everyone else
2) You.. cant say..
haiZ... MAYBE, WILL JUST FOGET ABOUT IT LORH.
Byes for now,
Nic
Sry!! AgAiN!! Never post for so long..
Actually, didnt wanna post.. But, yijing today say why I never post for so long..
So, I better post..
My mood not so good de lehs..
All because of the D, A & Z..
thn Pekwei, Minwei and Ginnie know who are they alr..
haiz... *sigh sigh sigh*
What am I gonna do?? WHAT???
nvm..
Byes~
Nic
This week is BAD!!!
Saturday, July 3, 2010
See... What can I do? haiz. I know all of you dont understand what I really mean at all... But, I really cant say. Rmb I say bout the : D,A,Z? & the Trustful or not trustful? Haiz. I havent get the ans!! Anw, that person in church, I ve been sms-ing you. Why arent replying my msg??? What happen to you? haiz. nvm ... Just hope that u are just busy. Thats all for now guys.
Byes
Signing off~
Nic >.< *wink*
Sry for not posting for such a long time!!! (:
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Hey, wats with me all these days??? haiz.... But I really cant figure out what I really want. D, A, Z? which? I dont noe. Can someone help me choose? NO! Its just my decision to this ans only. haiz... Will this problem ever solve? Or is A and Z has already been out? haiz... Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Not Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful? Trustful? Not Trustful?
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I dont know???!!!! HOW?! I ve been asking this question for days!! HELP!! ARE U TRUSTFUL? ARE U HONEST? ARE U THE ONE IM LOOKING FOR?
haiz...
Sad...
What am I gonna do with all this questions?
Nic - In a saddy mooddyyy.... =( haiz....